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Pam Mackie is a 40-something woman living with C6/7 tetraplegia. She has been paralyzed and using a wheelchair for mobility since a motorcycle wreck broke her neck at the C5/6 vertebrae in 1987. Pam was a very active young woman who enjoyed many different types of exercise before becoming paralyzed. She has actively sought information and means to continue exercising even though she is unable to move parts of her body. Pam is determined to not let barriers stop her from experiencing the best health and quality of life she can. Likewise, Pam did not let barriers stop her from finishing an undergraduate degree in Psychology and then earning a Masters in Psychology with a Specialization in Marriage and Family Therapy. Pam currently is mother to two furry children (cats) and in a committed relationship. Like people everywhere she struggles to make exercise a priority, create time to exercise, and master all other roadblocks to exercising. While living with a Spinal Cord Injury (SCI) may limit the realm of possible exercise activities, Pam is committed to doing what she can to exercise her body and being healthy.

This journal has been created through the efforts of the Rehabilitation Research and Training (RRTC) on Spinal Cord Injury (SCI), a project of the National Rehabilitation Hospital in partnership with ILRU a program of TIRR. The RRTC on Secondary Conditions in Individuals with SCI consists of a unique collaborative effort of national leaders in SCI-related research, clinical expertise, support and education organizations, independent living centers, and consumers with SCI. The focus of this RRTC is on further development of knowledge about and prevention of selected secondary conditions in SCI. The primary conditions studied will be cardiovascular disease and osteoporosis, although a wide range of other secondary conditions, such as respiratory dysfunction, urinary tract infection, depression, and pain, as well as quality of life, will be examined. We will also more intensely and specifically examine the effect of exercise and physical activity as a means to prevent certain secondary conditions after SCI.

While five of the research based projects planned through the RRTC will focus on knowledge about and/or prevention of selected secondary conditions that occur throughout the lifetime of an individual after incurring an SCI, four additional projects will focus on training. . A unique element of the training component is that consumers with SCI are involved extensively throughout the spectrum of research, including but not necessarily limited to peer mentoring of individuals with both acute and more chronic SCI, as well as in the education of health care professionals, legislators, and others in SCI-related fields.
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Jun. 27th, 2007 @ 05:41 pm Second half of Mona's Answers
The second thing he proclaimed was I should record or journal EVERYTHING I ate so we could see what and when I was eating. He gave me statistics about people underreporting calories in and overreporting calories out. He talked about nutritional values or ratios, fat/carbs/protein. I wrote down what I ate for a week but not the amounts or calories. That didn't help much. I dragged my feet and rebelled against having to write my food habits down. (again I always go the tough route) My biggest issue was I knew I wasn't eating much, how dare he think I was bingeing or lying about my food? We (I) played this game for a few more months the metformin was helping some but I still wasn't losing enough.

During this time I started swimming and working with a trainer who also happens to own a nutrition store. One more tool, I downloaded an e-book Burn the Fat, Feed the Muscle by Tom venuto. Things were finally starting to make sense about the nutrition. I finally caved and started logging my food using myfooddiary.com (excellent site for $9 a month by the way) I found I was not eating enough calories 500-600 a day and what I was eating was not healthy. (ok sidebar, I thought Taco Bell was healthier than McD's) Isn't a salad from Arbys healthy? Really more fat than a cheeseburger? How much fat is in that dressing? Two ladles of dressing is how many servings, 4? jeez that is a lot of calories and fat just in my healthy salad dressing. I just ate a piece of chicken, how many ounces are in a serving compared to the breasts in the package? How many people are supposed to share my pot pie? Who shares a pot pie?

My biggest education was in serving sizes. I bought a digital food scale, 20 or so dollars and started weighing my servings. I separate servings and put them in sandwich baggies. Ok I know this sounds OCD but really your idea of a serving and the real thing is way different.

My RMR tested out to be around 1500 calories. This means if all I did was lay in bed all day it would take 1500 calories a day to keep my system alive. Then you add in a multiplier depending on your activity level. I use 1.2 because even though I exercise a lot I am sedentary, in my chair, desk job, etc. My daily calorie intake should be around 1800 to maintain the weight at my activity level. (a little math lesson here) It takes 3500 calories to make a pound. if you divide it by 7 days of the week you get 500 a day. In order to lose weight you must have a calorie deficit. They (the experts) recommend losing 1 pound a week. So lower your calories by 500 a day to get your new target amount of 1300. Now remember the experts say there is a lower limit for men and women, women are not supposed to go under 1200 a day.

I keep track of my exercise calories burned and "eat back" those calories. I try not to go under 1200 net calories everyday. Somedays stress hits me or I forget to eat and I go under but not usually. There are days I eat to maintenance 1800 calories and if I swim I eat those calories back too. That means some days I eat 2300 or more calories. OMG that is so hard to eat 2300 calories of good food.

My food typically consists of oatmeal, bananas, protein shakes, protein wafers, chicken, turkey patties, broccoli, mushrooms, pizza, wheat bread, grapefruit peanut butter, almonds, pecans, walnuts, steak (usually moose), halibut, salmon, brown rice and sometimes white rice. I still eat taco bell sometimes. I even eat McD's but what I do is look at the calorie values and eat moderately. I assess the need and see if it is worth the calories I will use up. If I want chocolate I eat it but I also account for the numbers. I plan it into my day ( now I am really sounding OCD aren't I)

The experts recommend specific percentages of fat/carb/protein ratios. Because of my insulin resistance I find 40% protein, 30% carb and 30% fat give or take a % is best for me. This is not the typical recommendation! but it is what works for me. I guess why I have said this is because if I didn't log my food I wouldn't have had any way of finding this out, now I know.

I started at a very snug (popping buttons) size 14 (I am 5'2") and today I bought a pair of size 6s. My 8s are comfortable but I bought the 6s for inspiration. I NEVER thought I would ever be back into a size 10 let alone a 6.
I am sorry for the long answer and hope you have a great time on hiatus (sp).
Mona McAleese
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Jun. 26th, 2007 @ 05:39 pm 1st half of Mona's Answers
Hi Mona,
Thank you again for your participation. I am so glad and thankful for your sharing. I'm going on a hiatus from the blog. However, Marisa and I both wondered if you would mind sharing some about your dietary changes. You said you thought you were eating healthy before, but after talking with the dietician made some changes. Would you mind sharing about your before and after (the dietician) and how the food diary helps? Thank you!!

Pam
ps I'd love to see before and after pictures. They won't be posted, unless we ask your permission. My supervisor may or may not be interested in posting them.



Pam,
Wow, I will try and make this as concise as possible. I grew up in a large family on a tight budget. We always had pot meal kind of dinners. Meat and potatoes, whatever filled us up but didn't cost much. I really never learned about nutrition values. (I just had to put that disclaimer in there). As an adult raising my own family of course I mimicked what I knew.
After my accident I tried to keep my weight down by eating less. That really didn't work. I thought if I didn't eat very much I would lose weight. Not so brother bear! I kept gaining and gaining. It took 10 years but eventually I gained 40 or so pounds. I just didn't understand how I could not eat ANYTHING but still gain. In 2005 I went to my doctor and she wrote a referral for gastric bypass surgery. One qualification is to be at least 100lbs overweight and a BMI of over 40. I was 40lbs and a BMI of 30 something. The surgeon surprisingly enough recommended me for the surgery because of the strain the weight was putting on my shoulders. So at 171 lbs I started my six month doctor supervised weight loss program, a prerequisite to the surgery. I went through all of the tests, neuro psyche, sleep study, blood work, etc and in the end the insurance company said, NO WAY!!!! I was pretty frustrated. During this 6 month time I lost a whopping 9lbs.

My last visit to the surgeon one of the nurses suggested I go to the weight management clinic that had just opened up. I hesitated and really rebelled. I TRIED losing weight, I TRIED cutting calories, I TRIED exercising, yadda yadda yadda. Eventually I caved and made the appointment. This is a whole year later, beginning of 2006. (I try and make things as hard as possible, makes life more fun, not!) I really don't understand why I have to do everything the hard way, argh. I went for the consult. The first thing I did was to fill out a very long history of my weight habits, eating habits, family issues, possible eating disorders, etc. He did blood work and tested my RMR resting metabolism rate.

The first thing he did was announce that he knew what was wrong with me before he even saw me.(wow a doctor not wanting you to come back a zillion visits, jeez a breath of fresh air) He announced I had insulin resistance.

Insulin resistance (IR) is a condition(very common) in which the cells of the body become resistant to the effects of insulin, that is, the normal response to a given amount of insulin is reduced. Insulin is an important hormone that has many actions within the body. Most of the actions of insulin are directed at metabolism (control) of carbohydrates (sugars and starches), lipids (fats), and proteins. Insulin also is important in regulating the cells of the body including their growth.

In layman's terms it says your cells don't use the insulin so it can't turn nutrients into energy. Instead the cells turn your nutrients into fat. He prescribed Metformin (Glucophage) which is a medicine (tool) that allows your cells to react to nutrition and exercise like a normal body does.
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Jun. 19th, 2007 @ 03:01 pm THANK YOU EVERYBODY!
It looks like I’ll be taking a hiatus from this blog for awhile. There is just not a lot to talk about exercise while I’m unable to do any. I’ve written Mona to ask her the dietary questions Marisa asked about. When she answers I’ll post her answer(s). I have so enjoyed doing this blog. It has been so neat to share with others and have them share with us tips on maintaining exercise/activity while living with spinal cord injuries. So, thank each of you who have supported this blog by reading, writing, and/or recommending it to others. I, for one, have truly appreciated and benefitted from your efforts.

BE HEALTHY!!
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Jun. 15th, 2007 @ 03:34 pm cool resource
Hey I just received a catalog in the mail this week I've been meaning to mention. It has all kinds of adaptive exercise equipment. It says low price guarantee and the company information says it was founded by a C7 quadripleglic. Anyway, the website is www.AccessTR.com The name is Access To Recreation.
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Jun. 14th, 2007 @ 05:34 pm chillin' chillin'
I have not been this inactive for longer than I can remember. Without being able to exercise my right arm, I've decided to not exercise the left arm either. I'm already a little lopsided -- ability wise and I don't want to make the discrepancy wider. Plus I don't feel like doing anything. I am trying to enjoy a break in my usually driven gogo spirit. Anyway, it is definitely different not accomplishing a whole lot.

Just gotta heal and be judgment-free, relax, relax.
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Jun. 6th, 2007 @ 06:41 pm rediscover exercise opportunities
Today I had a chance to talk with my friend who was determined to be addicted to exercise. She is the lady living with tetraplegia who was doing the aerobic tapes almost daily. She went on vacation and came back ill. She plans on getting back to exercise when she feels better. Meanwhile, on her trip she met someone with information about a place here in Houston to exercise at.

My friend said for a reasonable price, even by my standards, you can exercise 3 times a week with personal trainers. The most miraculous part of this is the facility and services are for people with disabilities. I’m looking forward to learning more and trying it out when I can.

Today the pain has been frequent and intense, spasms too. I did 10 minutes of chair yoga a little while ago. I’ll do some more exercise just from desperation. There are some more questions I want to ask Mona. I hope to get to pecking them out before the end of the week. Oh, that reminds me, I did fill out the rest of the hippotherapy application. Now I need to get the doctor’s approval and I’ll be riding again.
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Jun. 5th, 2007 @ 06:40 pm bodies love exercise
Yesterday a friend came to visit and it was so lovely. She is my friend who has asked me to show her some exercises with weights. She told me, when visiting family recently, she started walking every day for exercise. However, since she has been home she has been in a funk and hasn’t exercised. While we were talking, she decided that maybe her body loves the exercising and is going through withdrawal.

I can definitely relate. My body has been a lot more spastic since I’ve been sidelined from exercising. I really need to find something that will help and not cause any more pain than I am already experiencing while growing new bone in my pinky.
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Jun. 3rd, 2007 @ 09:59 pm pain n growth
My hand is hurting and, more importantly, healing. My little body has been spasming and my feet also. I’ve been “dancing” off and on since I haven’t been exercising. I think I’ll venture into doing some chair yoga tomorrow. I’ll also move finishing the paper work for horse back riding therapy (hippotherapy) to the top of the priority list.

Written communication - hand writing and typing - is even more challenging using only my left hand. I am learning that life was better than I realized when one has no broken bones. Maybe this experience will help me become even more grateful and appreciative of my abilities rather than noticing and focusing on the extra effort and time required to accomplish things.
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Jun. 1st, 2007 @ 03:21 pm a break in my routine
Interestingly enough...my new moves with my 3lb weights may have been what broke a finger. I haven’t exercised since I tried them out on Monday. My hand became discolored and swollen and painful on Wednesday. So I made an appointment with the doctor for this morning.

He said it looked like a new break. Funny how something like that can be a relief to hear. I had been concerned it was from the first time my hand got injured back in late January. I thought maybe it never healed properly and it got re-injured. So, I was glad to hear there were options besides surgery.

Not feeling so great right now, but I’m thrilled I’m on the path to recovery.
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May. 28th, 2007 @ 08:20 pm Happy Memorial Day to All
Today I just finished doing 30 minutes of exercising. I did 10 minutes of aerobics followed by 20 minutes with my 3lb weights. I feel like I'm doing well. I enjoy exercising right now and happy that I am changing up my routine so it can be fun again. I am energized with being healthy right now.

Mona writing in and sharing has really sparked my interest in my own health. She is really a model of taking care of oneself and having the determination and pateience to keep at it. So thank you Mona and Everyone who has written in over the last sixteen months!!
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May. 27th, 2007 @ 08:12 pm comment replies - Q&A - THANKS Mona!!
Mona had written in a few days ago and in my reply to her, I asked her some questions. I thought it was exciting that she answered my questions. I also thought it might be good to post her answers here in case not many see the comments and replies of previous blog entries.

So here is her response to my questions.....

"Pam, I am always happy to answer questions. I find it cool to talk with people that may understand the issues that I deal with. I wish I could just "run" to the gym or run outside. Most people do not understand the nuance of having to cath in the middle of a routine or oops, mother nature kicked in NOW!!! also the issues of getting there, the length of time it takes to go someplace and the emotional pieces that come into play. So I will try and answer the ? the best I can. also there is a character limit so I will post twice

What kind of routine are you doing with the personal trainer?

I have a PT twice a week, one hour each time. we work on one body part for an hour. so one session I do chest, next shoulders, then biceps-triceps, then the back, and finally the abs. the back and abs are my hardest because I am a T-7 level and they don't work very well. Also my left tri-cep was injured in my motorcycle accident so I have been working extremely hard at getting it back. I can lift 7.5 lbs now with it, yahoooooo!

Where did you find to swim?
I live in Anchorage Alaska and several of the athletic clubs have lifts. The Y has a ramp. My issue is I am hypersensitive so anything other than warm water puts me into spasms and hurts really, really bad. So I have one gym that has a warm therapy pool that has a lift.

Are you able to access the pool independently?
Yes I am independent in the pool, getting in, using it and getting out. I have to say I wasn't at first. I was so afraid of drowning. LOL, just the opposite, I can't sink, not enough muscle. I worked with a friend/nurse that would meet me at the pool. I paid her 20$ a visit to stretch me and help me in the pool. I became confident enough that I knew I could do it on my own and the rest is history. I don't use any flotation devices to speak of. when I want to do specific exercises I use them but they are part of the routine.

When you work out, do you transfer from your chair?

Yes and no. when I use free weights I stay in my chair. most of the time I am ok with it but on some exercises my trainer holds my shoulders up. I have a hard time balancing (not falling out of my chair) when holding the heavy weights. when I do transfer, if I can independently, I do, but usually my trainer lifts me on and off. I guess if I really wanted to struggle I could do it myself but then we would lose valuable time and usually by the time I have worked my arms they are too tired transfer. I think this is the biggest difference I see with a trainer and a physical therapist. fyi I have a great deal for my trainer. he only charges me $40. hr most trainers are 70-80 an hour

What kind of exercises do you do?

with the trainer I do upperbody. Again I rotate body parts each session. so I do weight training 2x week. I also swim (water jog) in the pool 4 or 5 times a week for an hour. I jog with my arms and just let my legs hang.I have a waterproof ipod case and waterproof earphones so I crank up the tunes and swim like a maniac! I probably look really funny doing it, but whatever! I probably look funnier being 40 pounds overweight. today I picked up a hand bike. my friend just bought a new one and gave me his old one. I have to have it adjusted for me, I am a shorty. I am very excited to use it! my ultimate goal is to do the midnight sun ultra challenge. the longest wheelchair/handcycle race in the world. it goes from fairbanks to anchorage. my goal is to do it within 3 years.


How long did it take to you to notice physical results like weight reduction?

this is a hard and frustrating question. I have been trying to lose or even maintain my weight for the 11 years I have been in a chair. I started seeing a weight management doc last year and it has been a huge help. I found I was not eating enough and what I was eating wasn't very nutritional. (boy I didn't think I was eating that bad but....) so I started logging my food using myfooddiary.com only $9 month, exercising enough and portion control. Once I got a good program going I began to lose weight. I am also insulin resistant which has made it even tougher.

So to answer the question I found the right recipe to getting healthier in November of 2006. I really started to notice in February and now I am really down there. my heaviest was 171, 42 inch chest, 42" stomach 41% body fat. size xl top or 1x and size 14 going into 16 bottoms. I am now at 139, 35"chest, 30" stomach, 21.2% body fat. size large top and size 8 pants. I average losing about .7 lb a week.... so very slow but steady.

I hope I didnt talk too much. If you have any other questions please ask.I could email you a before and after pic if you want...
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May. 26th, 2007 @ 05:23 pm breaking up exercise - easier to commit to
I hope everyone is having a good weekend. I drove to visit family yesterday and didn't do any exercising. So, today, I got myself to do 10 minutes of aerobics two different times and 10 minutes of strength training using my 3 lb weights. I really enjoyed doing my workout, and thoroughly enjoyed them being so short. That way I didn't feel like I had to commit to 20+ minutes at one time and it just seemed more doable for me today.

When I finished my last 10 minute set, I had exercised 30 minutes. I'll have to remember this strategy for other days when I think other stuff is more important and I don't want to commit to a block of time for exercise.
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May. 25th, 2007 @ 08:02 pm yesterday's report
Thursday, yesterday, I started to do some strength training here at the house. I ended up stopping after 10 minutes and did 10 minutes of stretching/chair yoga because my body just really needed it. That was about it - no aerobics after all.
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May. 24th, 2007 @ 06:06 pm hiding out, still active though
Yesterday was May 23rd - Challenge Day. Cities asked the citizens to do at least 15 minutes of activity and then report it so they could see which cities exercise more than others. I did my part, I did 20 minutes of chair aerobics yesterday. I emailed them my activity today, so I counted and mattered.

I have been thinking about going to the gym, but I didn’t go yesterday and it looks like I’m not going today. The biggest part of not going is about hiding. I need assistance with the barbell and I was very disappointed in my reaction when I was denied the ability to do it. So, I guess you could say I’m nursing my wounds until I feel brazen enough to demand what I want without acquiescing to someone else’s preferences.

After getting this posted, I’m going to start my resistance training with the stretchy jump rope. I’m a little excited about getting that done and maybe I’ll throw in some aerobic activity also! I’ll let you know tomorrow.
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May. 23rd, 2007 @ 06:55 pm people pleasing test - again
Yesterday, May 22nd, was a wonderful day. It was filled with some choices of pleasing others or myself and I happy to report I chose me. I had planned on doing my swimming early in the day so after a 1 o’clock appointment my day would be free. A volunteer opportunity arose that would fill the afternoon. That opportunity felt like a pressure to me especially after things worked to where I was unable to attend the morning swim session. So a conflict of interests became apparent and I chose my interest and my health above all else.

After the people pleasing fiasco on Tuesday, I realizing that I’m making progress in taking care of my needs without sacrificing self for others. The day was super lovely after I got over with my discomfort at the thought that others may not like my choices. My swim session was phenomenal. I was able to get in the lap swimming lane. I completed a little over 25 laps before others arrived wanting to do laps. I got out of the lane as a courtesy because it would be difficult, if not impossible, for us to pass one another.

I swam for an hour and would have gone for at least a half hour more if they had not arrived. Oh, and a slightly comical thing about yesterday is I made my choices with the impression that the open swim session was only 3 until 5pm. Well, I found out, after the fact, it goes until 7pm, so everything could have fit in yesterday. If only the website for the pool had the aquatic schedule available, I could have done it all. I had looked for a pool schedule on Monday. Anyway, we have a printed one from the pool posted at home now for future reference.
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May. 22nd, 2007 @ 05:57 pm painful lessons
Ok, here is the low down about yesterday’s visit to the gym. I had a doctor’s appointment and decided I may or may not go to the gym after the appointment. The doctor kept me waiting for an hour before they came into the room. Of course, I was not very pleased with that, but I made the best of my time. I had brought a laptop and book just in case that was going to be the scenario. So the time was productive, I just disliked the lack of respect for me and the other clients. I use “clients” instead of "patients" because, as I mentioned in a blog entry last year, we are paying them for their services and therefore have “hired” them.

Oh that reminds me, one of my friends told me of a lady lawyer that sued her doctor for keeping her waiting and won. The doctor had to pay her for the time she was kept waiting past the appointment time at the lawyer’s hourly rate, $150/hour. That is what bugs me, most doctors suffer no negative consequences for their keeping their “patients” waiting. Instead by double booking, etc. they get rewarded for their “bad” behavior.

Ok, so back to the gym story. When I finally got out from the appointment, I was a little irritable from having to wait until the doctor graced me with their presence. So, I toyed with the idea of not stopping at the gym to work out. However, gas prices convinced me that it is cheaper to stop on the way home from an errand than go back out again at another time. So, I decided to work out. Everything went fairly fantastic for the most part. I was getting my work out done, when a new personal trainer offered to assist me.

Overall their help was very welcomed and appreciated, but there was a lot more talk than actual assistance. I was smiling and going along with it, beginning to get irritable from more of my day disappearing in front of my very eyes. However, I was learning some new things about how best to help myself, until they took away the barbell. Ok, I don’t like being told not to do something because it is “dangerous” or because it makes someone uncomfortable to watch me. Another trainer had taught me the routine I was doing with the barbell set. I’ve been doing it and have been able to up the weight, as I mentioned a week or so ago, and I LIKE doing it. It feels good.

The ending to this story is I ended up leaving and not demanding that they give me back the barbell and go away if it makes them uncomfortable. So my muscles did not get the fabulous work out they have been. Darn that people pleasing, “don’t make waves” trait that robs me of my freedom. I can only hope that I learn from these lessons and get more of an “and? so what” attitude to serve my personal needs and desires better.
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May. 21st, 2007 @ 06:45 pm test of belief
Sunday I didn’t rush into the other room to aerobicize after all. I piddled around accomplishing not a whole lot of anything until I got a phone call that alerted me my day was running out of time. My beloved was headed home and we were to go to the roller derby matches. So I hurriedly put in the Richard Simmons aerobic video and began doing aerobics. Wouldn’t you know, once I decided to do my exercise the telephone began ringing and a total of 3 different calls came through while I was exercising. However, I was determined and refused to stop exercising. I let the answering machine pick them up and I continued on.

Once again I was very surprised at how difficult it was for me to keep going with the people on the video. However, I kept at it and was encouraged by Richard Simmons urging us on to do the best we could and not worry.

Worry and concern for what other may think are my greatest weaknesses. Like today...I weighed and that just stirred up a hornet’s nest. Here I was really appreciating my body and actually celebrating it, loving it, and admiring it above anyone else’s. Which, that kind of attitude is new to me and I’m loving it. Then with today’s weigh in, I found myself wanting other’s acceptance and approval. I was also triggered to start thinking I need to be different than what I am.

Silly, silly me. I think those silly numbers were just a test to see which way of thinking I truly want to embrace. The old way of thinking may have won out in the past, but today and in the future I refuse to accept any other pattern of thinking than self-acceptance and self love.

I made it to the gym today, which I'll write about tomorrow.
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May. 20th, 2007 @ 02:15 pm just gonna do it
Friday was a good work out day. I had a chance to begin the home routine and then go the gym. I worked out hard and my arms have been a little sore ever since. It feels so good to have my torso muscles and back muscles making their presence known after working out. It is simply incredible.

Yesterday I spent the day with a couple of friends celebrating one of their birthdays. We had so much fun. Even though living with tetraplegia can be cumbersome, having friends that are also dealing with that challenge makes it “doable.” No one else can commiserate with how the mattress not being in the proper place can mean the difference between a successful transfer or one in which you get stuck and have to wait until someone comes home to rescue you. (That happened to me and one of my friends on Friday night.)

So no exercise yesterday, I’m not sure what I would have done for exercise with my arm muscles still sore from Friday’s workout. I still feel a little muscle soreness (and now a little too much sunness, from yesterday, on one of my arms) but I’m determined to work out some today. I vow to go in there and do the Lisa Erickson workout before I decide anything else is more important.
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May. 17th, 2007 @ 09:14 pm self talk determines everything
Yesterday and today have been good days. I spoke with my friend who is nurturing an exercise addiction. She told me how when she knew she was going to be waiting in a line for a very long time the other day, she packed her arm weights. She said she exercised while she was in line much to the surprise of others in line. Anyway, she is such an inspiration. I guess I end up comparing myself to her and not coming out favorably, so I don’t exercise at all. I’ve got to stop that malicious cycle. I don’t know what keeps me from doing what I know will make me feel good and proud. Hummmmmm.

Anyway on a bright note, last night when I was visiting another friend, I asked her to get out her 3 lb weights. She did and I exercised for about 20 minutes while we chatted and watched television. She surprised me once again when she asked me to direct her through some exercise moves with the weights.

Today I thought I’d at least do aerobics, I even got my aerobic weighted gloves out, but I haven’t gone any further. I hope I can salvage this day by doing some exercise. I guess I keep thinking it won't really help and that is neither true nor helpful. Abracadabbra - brain you are now re-programmed for only true positive thoughts and beliefs. I hope this spell works forever.
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May. 15th, 2007 @ 08:50 pm Water- GOOD
I did it! I did it! I did it! That is my way of saying for the first time since my SCI in June 1987 I SWAM. Today was the day. I never knew I could swim until my friend (the one nurturing an exercise addiction) told me how she swam for an hour or two and loved it. Since she told me that, I have wanted to try. Oh sure, during the years I have floated - in a pool, lake, bay water, jacuzzi, bath tub, Sea World San Antonio, but never swam. I swam for a little over an hour and a half.

I can’t describe it...suffice it to say I’m going back next week and the week after that and the one after that, etc....until it is tattoo time again. Then I’ll have to sit out until the healing has happened. I swam fast and slow and oh, oh, oh -they had this thing that you could use to pull yourself up while in the water. So, I did pull-ups. Right now, I’m exhausted and going for a well-earned rest.
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